lts been said by a friend on youtube whom l had given my complete experience without having to hide adresses and in some cases names.
"Your've been through all this without going insane?", l appreciate so much you sharing with me your experience.
This had never really sunk in until she said that, my life has been prepared that way looking back now. lt could never of been accomplished otherwise and lm grateful my path has been the way it has been now, even though its been a friggin' trial mentally and emotionally. Thats been part of the invisible program all along otherwise the the non existence of training 'within' would of been impossible.
lts true l have been through a rollercoaster hullabaloo of emotions 'within', sometimes in very dark areas, even in the House of Attitudes.
When no one was around sometimes l was violent towards my mop and bucket or pots and pans. l'd verbally shout out in frustration throwing things around thus creating more of a mess to clean up. Synchronistically Huw would show up during these times to work his magical presence upon me....l would suddenly feel at ease. This is why he was placed around me to get me to 'cave in' to his hidden 'give it up do as l say' demands.
l adored Huw but l could never allow myself to indicate this, the bloodlines 'hidden mask' knew this and worked within him to allow me to touch him with fingers l was given.
l heard the 2 voices within during the final months around him in the House of Attitudes. Sometimes he would stroke one hand though his hair while staring at me smiling.
"l want to touch his hair"
"Don't go there"
HIDDEN PLACE....BJORK. Hes so beautiful as fragile as still strong, dark and divine, and the littleness of his movements hides himself. He invents a charm that makes him invisible, hides in the hair can l hide there too, hide in the hair of him, seek solace sanctuary. ln the hidden place,in a hidden place, we'll stay in a hidden place.
lts probably bizarre this experience l write to people whom are reading my comments l know, its like an X-files soap opera in the twilight zone and it has been for Glen and l too.
Even though we have each passed a great hurdle in our experience and within, its still a bit of a struggle for us mentally sometimes.
Outside through our eyes is a world we have left behind mentally and socially. l feel like lm around children with other adults engaged in the menial chit chats of simply boring things. Anything that we speak of is way outside their scope for they never look beyond the TV's veiw, they have no desire to also.
Whats it all about and whats it all been for is something l long for to be answered, who are we to have been through this ordeal?? This is the hurdle we have come to now but lm waiting patiently...pissed off at times too..ha.
Thanks Andrew with peace and love :)
ReplyDeletelts been said by a friend on youtube whom l had given my complete experience without having to hide adresses and in some cases names.
"Your've been through all this without going insane?", l appreciate so much you sharing with me your experience.
This had never really sunk in until she said that, my life has been prepared that way looking back now.
lt could never of been accomplished otherwise
and lm grateful my path has been the way it has been now, even though its been a friggin' trial mentally and emotionally.
Thats been part of the invisible program all along otherwise the the non existence of training 'within' would of been impossible.
lts true l have been through a rollercoaster
hullabaloo of emotions 'within', sometimes in very dark areas, even in the House of Attitudes.
When no one was around sometimes l was violent
towards my mop and bucket or pots and pans.
l'd verbally shout out in frustration throwing things around thus creating more of a mess to clean up.
Synchronistically Huw would show up during these times to work his magical presence upon me....l would suddenly feel at ease.
This is why he was placed around me to get me to 'cave in' to his hidden
'give it up do as l say' demands.
l adored Huw but l could never allow myself to
indicate this, the bloodlines 'hidden mask' knew this and worked within him to allow me to
touch him with fingers l was given.
l heard the 2 voices within during the final months around him in the House of Attitudes.
Sometimes he would stroke one hand though his hair while staring at me smiling.
"l want to touch his hair"
"Don't go there"
HIDDEN PLACE....BJORK.
Hes so beautiful as fragile as still strong,
dark and divine, and the littleness of his movements hides himself.
He invents a charm that makes him invisible,
hides in the hair can l hide there too, hide in the hair of him, seek solace sanctuary.
ln the hidden place,in a hidden place, we'll
stay in a hidden place.
lts probably bizarre this experience l write to people whom are reading my comments l know, its like an X-files soap opera in the twilight zone and it has been for Glen and l too.
ReplyDeleteEven though we have each passed a great hurdle in our experience and within, its still a bit of a struggle for us mentally sometimes.
Outside through our eyes is a world we have left behind mentally and socially.
l feel like lm around children with other adults engaged in the menial chit chats of simply boring things.
Anything that we speak of is way outside their scope for they never look beyond the TV's veiw,
they have no desire to also.
Whats it all about and whats it all been for is something l long for to be answered, who are we to have been through this ordeal??
This is the hurdle we have come to now but lm
waiting patiently...pissed off at times too..ha.