One thing l must thank BLOODLINE chrissy for...., [my brothers girlfriend from '86-'00] is introducing me to weed. l'd never dabbled in smoking weed beforehand 1993ish, yet it made me feel ten fold shyer so l only would smoke it privately, in front of anyone l felt paranoind with shyness and l understand why now, l'm glad it did.
l felt comfortable with my occasional smoke privately as it made me 'meditate' sharper particulary with all the books l was reading at that time. Zecharia Sitchins books were so complex to read but with a smoke l seemed to follow his work and l read all of his stuff. However l didn't fully grasp his stuff until it made sense when connecting it with David Ickes work.
[David Icke is a hero he is, l mean that]
Chrissy would supply me with 3 or 4 small cigerettes a week which l enjoyed, then when l started working at Attitudes it stopped as l didn't see her much from then on as her relationship with my younger brother Michael was in decline in 1999, which l didn't know.
Whats happened to Michael is another story altogether since then, as well as my even younger brother Colin. But l know......
What was to happen as from 1999 had nothing to do with weed. l was working 7 nights a week as well as cleaning houses through the day...supplied by an ***. It was then that 'Flash' appeared at night in Attitudes. l was so friggin' busy l had no time to myself even cutting my finger nails or toe nails was a like 'when can l fit this in?'.
This is the way the bloodline had me running under their schedule with deciet, little did l know it though during that year, hard to explain somewhat.
Everyone at Attitudes seemed to smoke or take something, eventually l started you know trying to be cool with the younger gang also. However mine was NEVER during work time, l noticed some were 'flying' while at work but never said so.
Even bloodline Huw would indulge in smoking weed in front of me sometimes. l didn't mind this but when it came to me there was no way l'd start lighting up! Once Huw pushed a cigerette towards me with his fingers, l succumbed to his act lighting it up while working. Well within a few minutes l felt like LEAD pushing my mop. l felt this erotic tension between us looking at him while he played with his hair, l had to go outside to fill the bucket with fresh water as an excuse. While outside filling the bucket with fresh water and suds l was thinking "l don't like this...l wish he would leave".
Suddenly Huw pushed the door open just outside from where l was filling the bucket.
'l'm going boss" he said with a look of contempt and he wandered off up the passage way heading for the carpark of Attitudes.
Me in my buzz from smoking a bit of marijuana said in suprise 'Okay..." l felt a sense of relief, but maybe he wanted me to do something?"
Now when l look back of course he wanted me to do something.
"l don't think your gonna play, l could bring you so much pleasure, just close your eyes, l know you want me' Erotica....Madonna
When l was outside filling up the bucket of water l was thinking to myself l wished that Huw would leave, l felt very uncomfortable despite the fact that l wanted something between us but only if he'd make the first move.
Huw was inside the building but he knew what l was thinking while outside. l knew this from the way he exited and l felt he'd read my mind, it was an intuitive thing...the look on his face and comment leaving was the straw that broke the camels back that night.
Why is he here? why is he flirting around me? This he did secretly at times but l pretended not to notice. "Why doesn't he?...he's not shy"
lt was up to me to initiate contact sexually, not him, this is where the bloodline from my experience are fucked. They can ony go forward with our consent of permission which is how the manipulate us with lies and deception on the world stage with corrupted tools and stupid clowns like Bush as leaders in government....PM John Howard of Oz too...Man of Steel, HA.
It is a stage this world stage and majority of the publics are like clowns that make up its audience stupidly. Then theres us for some reason or other watching the carnival of clowns.
One thing l must thank BLOODLINE chrissy for...., [my brothers girlfriend from '86-'00] is introducing me to weed.
ReplyDeletel'd never dabbled in smoking weed beforehand 1993ish, yet it made me feel ten fold shyer so l only would smoke it privately, in front of anyone l felt paranoind with shyness and l understand why now, l'm glad it did.
l felt comfortable with my occasional smoke privately as it made me 'meditate' sharper particulary with all the books l was reading at that time.
Zecharia Sitchins books were so complex to read but with a smoke l seemed to follow his work and l read all of his stuff.
However l didn't fully grasp his stuff until it made sense when connecting it with David Ickes work.
[David Icke is a hero he is, l mean that]
Chrissy would supply me with 3 or 4 small cigerettes a week which l enjoyed, then when l started working at Attitudes it stopped as l didn't see her much from then on as her relationship with my younger brother Michael was in decline in 1999, which l didn't know.
Whats happened to Michael is another story altogether since then, as well as my even younger brother Colin.
But l know......
What was to happen as from 1999 had nothing to do with weed.
l was working 7 nights a week as well as cleaning houses through the day...supplied by an ***.
It was then that 'Flash' appeared at night in Attitudes.
l was so friggin' busy l had no time to myself even cutting my finger nails or toe nails was a like 'when can l fit this in?'.
This is the way the bloodline had me running under their schedule with deciet, little did l know it though during that year, hard to explain somewhat.
Everyone at Attitudes seemed to smoke or take something, eventually l started you know trying to be cool with the younger gang also.
However mine was NEVER during work time,
l noticed some were 'flying' while at work but never said so.
Even bloodline Huw would indulge in smoking weed in front of me sometimes.
l didn't mind this but when it came to me there was no way l'd start lighting up!
Once Huw pushed a cigerette towards me with his fingers, l succumbed to his act lighting it up while working.
Well within a few minutes l felt like LEAD pushing my mop.
l felt this erotic tension between us looking
at him while he played with his hair, l had to go outside to fill the bucket with fresh water as an excuse.
While outside filling the bucket with fresh water and suds l was thinking "l don't like this...l wish he would leave".
Suddenly Huw pushed the door open just outside from where l was filling the bucket.
'l'm going boss" he said with a look of contempt and he wandered off up the passage way heading for the carpark of Attitudes.
Me in my buzz from smoking a bit of marijuana said in suprise 'Okay..."
l felt a sense of relief, but maybe he wanted me to do something?"
Now when l look back of course he wanted me to do something.
"l don't think your gonna play, l could bring you so much pleasure, just close your eyes, l know you want me'
Erotica....Madonna
When l was outside filling up the bucket of water l was thinking to myself l wished that Huw would leave, l felt very uncomfortable despite the fact that l wanted something between us but only if he'd make the first move.
ReplyDeleteHuw was inside the building but he knew what l was thinking while outside.
l knew this from the way he exited and
l felt he'd read my mind, it was an intuitive thing...the look on his face and comment leaving was the straw that broke the camels back that night.
Why is he here? why is he flirting around me?
This he did secretly at times but l pretended not to notice.
"Why doesn't he?...he's not shy"
lt was up to me to initiate contact sexually, not him, this is where the bloodline from my experience are fucked.
They can ony go forward with our consent of permission which is how the manipulate us with lies and deception on the world stage with corrupted tools and stupid clowns like Bush as leaders in government....PM John Howard of Oz too...Man of Steel, HA.
It is a stage this world stage and majority of the publics are like clowns that make up its audience stupidly.
Then theres us for some reason or other watching the carnival of clowns.
Putting up with the friggin' flak of humanity.